Music has always been my love. My first love and only love. But this evening I found myself stood at a gig, completely alone listening to this amazing band and I realised music wasn't the only thing that took a hold of my heart anymore.
I left after 4 songs and not upset I couldn't enjoy the gig alone, I left with a smile on my face, knowing how much I wanted you there with me to enjoy things with me and that was a new feeling. The fact I hadn't seen you for 5 hours yet missed you undeniably, filled me with the purest happiness.
I'm now tucked up in our bed, and I love nothing more than listening to you share your infinite knowledge to everyone that is lucky enough to listen.
I hope I can be the girl you deserve, because you sure as hell have made me the person I've longed to be.
Maybe 2012 is going to be different after all.
About Me
- Sarah
- 22, Yorkshire girl through and through. Living and loving in Edinburgh. Glamorous indie rock and roll
Thursday 19 January 2012
Tuesday 24 May 2011
I always have, and think I always will, have an absolute hatred and loathing for dating sites.
I just do not get them, I don't get why its so hard to meet someone the 'old fashioned way' yknow, in real life.
Did your grandparents love stories really go something like 'and then a machine told us we were compatible and we lived happily ever after' no! No they don't.
Now I'm not scorning people who meet on the internet at all, cause sometimes thats just how it works, one of my friends met his wife online and if it wasn't for this they wouldn't have a beautiful boy right now, I have issues with people who purposefully go online to find that 'soulmate'. There's that old saying that if you stop looking for love, it will come to you and I truly believe that. Go out on a night out or to a park and you can see the people that are there solely to meet somebody and that is off putting as sin. They might aswell be wearing a sandwich board and screaming LOVE ME from the top of their lungs. Really all dating sites are, is desperation meeting desperation. People who are settling because they are so tired of living and just want to call it quits.
The fact that about 60% of these dating site users are aged from as young as 18(???) to 24 makes it all the more sad. People in the prime of their social and travelling life.
Oy vey. For now I'll just go back in my bunker with my vinyl's until its safe to come out again.
I just do not get them, I don't get why its so hard to meet someone the 'old fashioned way' yknow, in real life.
Did your grandparents love stories really go something like 'and then a machine told us we were compatible and we lived happily ever after' no! No they don't.
Now I'm not scorning people who meet on the internet at all, cause sometimes thats just how it works, one of my friends met his wife online and if it wasn't for this they wouldn't have a beautiful boy right now, I have issues with people who purposefully go online to find that 'soulmate'. There's that old saying that if you stop looking for love, it will come to you and I truly believe that. Go out on a night out or to a park and you can see the people that are there solely to meet somebody and that is off putting as sin. They might aswell be wearing a sandwich board and screaming LOVE ME from the top of their lungs. Really all dating sites are, is desperation meeting desperation. People who are settling because they are so tired of living and just want to call it quits.
The fact that about 60% of these dating site users are aged from as young as 18(???) to 24 makes it all the more sad. People in the prime of their social and travelling life.
Oy vey. For now I'll just go back in my bunker with my vinyl's until its safe to come out again.
Friday 20 May 2011
An act of class?
I got rid of my tumblr a few months ago cause I was sick of amateur dramatics but I still look at a few of my fave blogs.
I follow 2 girls in particular, 1 is the classiest and nicest girl she works hard, has a gorgeous boyfriend and doesn't feel the need to talk about sex at all online.
Then the other girl, seems to talk about sex non-stop and not just in general, personal sex issues she has/has had/is having. Most recently she's gone as far as to post pictures on this subject.
Don't get me wrong, I am nothing but a prude but their is a line that you just don't cross. I mean yeah she might have a steady job now but give it a few years and what happens if someone googles your name, a future boyfriend maybe who isn't into that shit, and see's a photo of you giving someone a blowie online.
You might aswell star in a porno, least you get paid for that.
I follow 2 girls in particular, 1 is the classiest and nicest girl she works hard, has a gorgeous boyfriend and doesn't feel the need to talk about sex at all online.
Then the other girl, seems to talk about sex non-stop and not just in general, personal sex issues she has/has had/is having. Most recently she's gone as far as to post pictures on this subject.
Don't get me wrong, I am nothing but a prude but their is a line that you just don't cross. I mean yeah she might have a steady job now but give it a few years and what happens if someone googles your name, a future boyfriend maybe who isn't into that shit, and see's a photo of you giving someone a blowie online.
You might aswell star in a porno, least you get paid for that.
Thursday 19 May 2011
New start
Not 100% why I started this. I needed a private outlet to vent I guess, no lurkers lurking.
The other day I learnt something. Something that I think I needed to know and things I needed to read. Turns out you can't trust who you thought.
I'm trying with all my might to forget it and its hard but I'm trying.
I'm happy, I live in a city hundreds of thousands of people flock to every month just to visit its beauty and history. I have good friends, friends who are willing to drive 6 hours to see me for a few days, I have a beautiful house that I am making my own and starting up my photography again, I'm headed to university in September to hopefully start what will be the rest of my life in something I love. And I have love. It may be hard-work and it might not be a whirlwind romance but it is a romance and through it all I know he's at the other end, to kiss me on the forehead and to push me to be the better person I know I can be.
My home-town can keep the mundane, the drama, the routine and the pointless sex cycle's with the same people.
I'm out and I've not stopped smiling.
The other day I learnt something. Something that I think I needed to know and things I needed to read. Turns out you can't trust who you thought.
I'm trying with all my might to forget it and its hard but I'm trying.
I'm happy, I live in a city hundreds of thousands of people flock to every month just to visit its beauty and history. I have good friends, friends who are willing to drive 6 hours to see me for a few days, I have a beautiful house that I am making my own and starting up my photography again, I'm headed to university in September to hopefully start what will be the rest of my life in something I love. And I have love. It may be hard-work and it might not be a whirlwind romance but it is a romance and through it all I know he's at the other end, to kiss me on the forehead and to push me to be the better person I know I can be.
My home-town can keep the mundane, the drama, the routine and the pointless sex cycle's with the same people.
I'm out and I've not stopped smiling.
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